"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there." Otomo No Yakamochi
Loves end is a pain in the rump no matter if its for a fellow human, or a community.
Recently, I have been waddling along taking care of personal issues. Shut yo mouth! Yea, I know I hate whining, overly personal posting...whatevah. Anyhoo been taking care of stuff here in Lollieland and haven't been posting on or reading many blogs, nor have I been in what was once my fave hangout much....The long and short is the place I fell in love with is no longer there....its a seething pool of bullshit and very clique-ish....Heaven forbid you not be one of the pity me crowd you're all but ignored. I don't wanna post my creations there anymore...not because they suck, but because it seems one is obviously overlook if you aren't in the "in crowd"...Who can figure the dynamics, I sure as hell can't.
If you arent a Christian....these good folk who call themselves one...act like you have the plague. Odd for those that are suppose to be loving open people. Alisha all but avoids me now...bravo...WWJD, HUH?
Then you have a self serving know it all...seems anytime anyone post she must give her approval....WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT YOU THINK YOU TWIT??? She always has an opinion...Typing for the sake of seeing her typing ....The smokers want to do a swap....good idea if you ask me....but no one did, LOL...anyway this person wasted no time in making her thoughts known...SHE DOESNT SMOKE!, however, her cheerio to the thread starter was nothing more than a put down guised as a compliment....Listen Donna get over it you aint so fucking special we all need your fucking approval, you half wit self absorbed turd! I swear when a new post is up she is right there and I get that Charlie Brown thing going on in my head. BlaH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH...OY!
Anyway, I am very sad because I long for the community it was before...no one whined about everyday bullshit. If someone had a problem you were more likely to read cuz you KNEW it was a real problem. Not mundane everyday crap most people deal with. It didnt used to matter what religion you were.....I still like to read posts in show and tell but my perception has become one of feeling very much to as if I don't belong.
We have a rule in our family......ditch toxic people, they just bring ya down...so now what do I do? Keep on keeping on like I am, reading but not posting?
Should I push my way in? That's not my nature. So I guess I will keep me on the down-low until I decide if I want to stay.
Now people may say I am not really into C'ville anyway....I rarely post, they never see me bragging about any charity work, and they never see me posting overly personal get to know me crap...AH HA but you are wrong very very wrong.....
I send a ton of RAOKs, alot to some of the people that shun me, I also give a ton of comfortghan squares perhaps I should be one of the masses and make sure all know my good deeds.....Don't these acts make me a community member? Maybe I am looking at it all wrong...maybe I should just act like I dont notice all the bullshit. Why the hell are these clique-ish types being allowed to run the board? I was thrilled to see a recent post about etiquitte however....perception plays into this....what I might find flame-ish someone else might not find anything wrong with it and visa versa.
Guess all and all the saddest part is I am allowing myself to let these few make me want to leave....Why, I wonder?
Okay I think I have done enough rambling and bitching...just the afore mention bugs the ever loving crap out of me.
On to other stuff....
My friend Miss Jane needs good thoughts and prayers going to her husband George. He has been ill and she's a strong lady but not in the best health herself. I have had a card sitting here for her for almost 3 weeks and haven't made it to the post office yet. Yea, I suck. Sorry Jane. Luv Ya and stuff...
Speaking of packages....I have a number sitting here for fellow crafter/crocheters.
Jo, Beth, Swapna, Vicki, Faith, Melissa and Deneen....Hoping to mail these bad boys Friday. Fingers crossed ladies! Me and time lately....never a twain shall meet, ya know what I mean?
Deneen, I think I found a solution to stink fish-y pan/skillets. Vanilla, baby....I know it works for a microwave...so worth a shot in a pan...just add a teaspoon or two in the skillet and warm on the stove....buh-bye stinky fish pan!
I will be adding product to my site this week! YAY! If I can make me do it, HA the catch! I think I will make the total cost include postage.
Thanx to Tiffany, Fran and Vicki all sent fabulous packages! It means a ton...Love that you all took the time and thought of me! Makes a people feel good. Tiffany sent a box with divine, wool ease thick and quick and something else thats loverly. And Vicki sent divine, candle and notepad. Fran sent a ton of pet food coupons! And I probably should apologize. I think sometimes when I type things they just don't come out like I want them too. And Fran had been gracious enough to send a monitary donation a month or so ago and I mentioned I felt odd taking it....I did feel weird, but not a bad weird...more like a surprise at such kindness....BTW 3 doggies spayed this year! YAY!
I guess I will close with a disclaimer now.....
If my post upset anyone metioned in it or anyone sensitive...BITE ME!
Oh and again I will probably not be here much due to stuff and things....I do have Fos to post as well as a pic of the fabu shawl Deneen sent. Thoughts and good vibes peeps, plz!
PS...Swapna, I missed ya something awful, glad you're back!